And I didn’t know what you thought as you turned in the moonlight and let the darkness take you in. I thought I saw a glimmer of sadness flicker behind your eyes, but it was fleeting as your face crinkled into the very essence of life itself.
Your smile swallowed me whole. It lit the alleyway, dark and musty, but sweet and succulent – all at the same time. Such beauty, juxtaposed against the raw truth of survival, and the contrasting lack of.
You waved me goodbye. I kept seeing your face, long after we rounded the corner and you disappeared from view. And that night I cried for you.
I don’t know what you go back to, or what waits for you at home after the darkness steers you there and the night steals the day. I don’t know if you have a bed to call your own, or a mother who wraps you up in her warmth, and fills you with love. I don’t know if you ever got to be a child. I don’t know if you are warm and dry at night. Or if you go to sleep hungry, or full.
But I know your sweetness. I know the language of your eyes. I know your smile would light the darkest hour. And your wisdom is profound. I also know your innocence is framed by suffering, though it has not yet tainted you. I hope it never does. You are not hardened. No. Not yet.
I want to come back for you and sweep you up. Shield your memories from all you have seen. Carry for you all the injustices, and all the tears you have cried on the inside. But I know I cannot. And you know too. And that is why you waved, with happiness on the outside, and sadness within. Because I can’t save you, and you dared not ask me to. That, we both understood.
In one day you crept under my skin and seeped into my very core. Over thousands of miles and wild seas, I will think of you. I will send you all the love I can find. It’s crazy how just one moment can change it all.
I wonder what life will mean for you. I wonder if you will always smile with such kindness. I wonder if you will fall in love. I wonder if wisdom will always besiege you.
I have met many people on these travels so far but you, and your fourteen years of life, grabbed something in my heart that hadn’t been grabbed before. And now for some reason, you’re in my thoughts…
I hope I lit your day, even half as much as you lit mine.
October 29th, 2012 at 10:06 pm
You would have Amy, I’m sure.
October 31st, 2012 at 2:37 am
Thanks Sandy 🙂
October 30th, 2012 at 5:45 pm
Wow. Simply beautiful.
October 30th, 2012 at 5:47 pm
Thanks so much! 🙂
October 30th, 2012 at 7:04 pm
I’ve always believed that traveling teaches us more about life than any standardized education system. 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 2:14 am
Yes it is certainly a great teacher, I’m enjoying attending lessons very much 🙂
October 30th, 2012 at 8:00 pm
I just randomly came across your blog. This is beautifully written and your words are comforting to me during a hard time. I read this over and over. And saved it so I can come back to it. Thank you.
October 31st, 2012 at 2:17 am
Thanks Ellise… I am so glad you enjoyed this post and could find some comfort here.. Good Luck!
October 30th, 2012 at 8:21 pm
Poetry. Pure. Thank you.
October 31st, 2012 at 2:17 am
Thanks Karen 🙂 Glad you enjoyed it!
October 30th, 2012 at 8:34 pm
It captured me and carried me away on the current of your words and thoughts. I loved the way it flowed.
October 31st, 2012 at 2:19 am
Thankyou… It’s so great to hear you could fall into the flow 🙂
October 30th, 2012 at 9:01 pm
I think he is somewhere where Mickey knows how you feel!
October 31st, 2012 at 2:19 am
I hope so! 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 7:04 am
I can relate to this. You write beautifully. Thank you for sharing. 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 8:22 am
Thankyou Eileen… thankyou for reading!
October 31st, 2012 at 7:59 am
You have such a wonderful heart. It shows in your writing. 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 8:21 am
Ohh thankyou! 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 8:44 am
And suddenly there was unnoticed tears dropping from my eyes while reading this. How heartwarming.
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October 31st, 2012 at 9:03 am
Thankyou… I’m glad you enjoyed it 🙂
November 1st, 2012 at 4:56 am
I really enjoyed it. Waiting for more 🙂
November 1st, 2012 at 10:28 am
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October 31st, 2012 at 11:46 am
Beautiful. Your words shimmer.
November 1st, 2012 at 10:33 am
… Oh thank you! 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 1:35 pm
Nice post. Congrats on being Freshly Pressed.
October 31st, 2012 at 2:19 pm
Thanks Marti! Glad you like. The Freshly Pressed came as a big surprise, I must say 🙂 very grateful.
October 31st, 2012 at 1:51 pm
This is so beautiful. I just stumbled across your blog hopping along a rabbit trail on the internet. hehe Gotta love the web. Looking forward to reading more of your heart. You’re a lovely writer.
:o)Sarah
October 31st, 2012 at 2:18 pm
Ahh the good old rabbit trail… you never do know what you will find! Thanks for your comment.. I’m glad you enjoyed the post 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 2:32 pm
Wonderful post!! It’s amazing how things can open your eyes, congrats on being Freshly Pressed!
October 31st, 2012 at 2:35 pm
Thankyou! 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 3:02 pm
What a moving story, and so beautifully written. Thank you for sharing it with us.
November 1st, 2012 at 10:31 am
Thankyou ~ I’m very glad you liked it! 🙂
October 31st, 2012 at 5:34 pm
I’m glad I found this in Freshly Pressed! I read past posts of your blog and I loved your story. You are brave. I am sort of doing something similar although I had a definite destination. Plus, backpacking through south east Asia is a must do for me, so I’d love to read more about it. Good luck on your journey!
November 1st, 2012 at 10:30 am
Thanks, I’m very glad you found it & enjoyed it! I wish you good luck on your journey also ~ it is so good to explore and see new places 🙂
November 1st, 2012 at 4:34 am
Wow!!!
November 1st, 2012 at 10:29 am
Thanks!
November 1st, 2012 at 1:22 pm
It seems as though I’ve met Mickey myself. I can imagine through your words. Very profound. I love it. And that’s a very sweet picture of you two.
November 1st, 2012 at 1:45 pm
Thanks Addie 😉 Glad you liked it… he’s a sweet kid…
November 2nd, 2012 at 10:32 am
Amazing!!!! I love the deep words used…my best line “But I know your sweetness. I know the language of your eyes. I know your smile would light the darkest hour” great work
November 2nd, 2012 at 4:29 pm
Thankyou! I’m so glad you enjoyed the post 🙂
November 11th, 2012 at 11:00 pm
Ok…wiping the tears away after reading that. Your words have a way of making me feel like I have experienced it for myself…so heavy but pure. Mmm “I know the language of your eyes” …can definitely relate to that line babe 🙂 So much truth in that xx
November 12th, 2012 at 9:24 am
xxx thankyou xxx